Today I saw the world end, but believe that nothing happened.
It fell away and nothing moved.
Everyone was gone, yet they wouldn't leave.
I saw myself die ,reaching the the fallen stars, and I just stood by... my soul left so, I remain empty.
I wish the dreams would stop, I can't bare them anymore, I need to sleep.
I want to stop but I keep seeing the world fall, ending every day, I wish to die.
I was lost so long ago that no one could find me, they walk past me everyday and never see me.
If I could stay I would leave and if I should leave I have to stay.
The circle of my ending will go on , and no one sees it.
Why the world doesn't see the end I will never know, I'm just trapped in the between...seeing the end and the now.


To any who read this know it is note a suicide note just me being angsty,like my mood says, I would not do that online if I ever had the urge to do so. I have just been in a rather depressing mood the last couple of days, and the cheerful mood on the last journal was pissing me off.
Ugh.. I really need to JUST sleep, I'm one of those people that don't dream really, but recently I have been and I'm so tried, and the worst part is that the dreams are awful! I keep dreaming people in my family are dieing, and people that know me, in person, will know how that makes me feel. In my family we some times know things, like stuff that will happen or days, and I know that sounds like a lie but it is true, I knew when my sister was having her baby and it was premature by like a month, I told my teacher that I was going to leave early that day cause my sister was going to have her baby. And the day passed out in class I knew something was bad was going to happen. Anyway I'm really freaking out and its making me sleep really bad...I'm so tired.

Any ideas on how to help me sleep is welcome...